During Lent we are supposed to be more deliberate about giving alms. I think this is mostly what Great Lent is all about – not hedging back the world, but actively disenfranchising ourselves to be with those whom Jesus Christ came to serve. I decided a few years ago not to talk about times when I give. The Sermon on the Mount seems pretty clear to me on this point: I can be rewarded with fanfare now, or by the One who sees in secret later. So let's just say that, like most people, I give, but not enough. While I won't talk about specific episodes of giving, I did want to share a few lessons I have learned about giving.
The first lesson I have learned is not to deprive myself of chances to meet Jesus, who said he is in the "least of these." While giving donations to charitable organizations is a good practice, writing "disembodied checks" should not excuse us from facing Christ in the face of the poor. Maybe looking a beggar in the eye makes me uncomfortable, but I'm pretty sure looking Jesus Christ in the eye would make me uncomfortable, too.
On that note, I have also been learning to touch the homeless. My friend, Doug, first introduced me to this practice. I noticed that he actually put his arm around homeless people he met, he looked them in the eye, and he asked for their names. He treated them like people. Every age has had its lepers, its nameless outcasts. The lepers of our age are the homeless. They are "unclean." And Christ touched the unclean. Therefore, I believe we should make it a point to shake the hands of those who ask for our money, to ask their names, and in some small way to remind them that they too bear the image of God.
Finally, I have been learning to give in faith. I know that the "correct" thing is to give in suspicion. "After all," says common opinion, "the beggar might take my money and buy booze or drugs. Then I'm just an enabler." I have to say this reasoning makes sense to me, but it just seems so cynical. I could assume the worst about a person – that because this person is a beggar, she is obviously a liar; thus I need to decide what is best for her. Or I could give in the faith that she is being truthful – that she will use our gift for a good purpose. Of course, maybe the best thing is not to give money, but to buy the homeless beggar a meal. I applaud those who drop everything and dine with beggars whenever they are asked for money, but I have found that when I followed that line of reasoning I mostly used my busy schedule as an excuse to do nothing. Taking a beggar at his word may be naive, but thinking the best about the people I meet just seems like the more Christian thing to do. After all, the beggars I meet are Jesus.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Orthodoxy: Not Seeker Sensitive
"For no one is going to say that he does any service to a spring by drinking from it, or to the light by beholding it." – St Augustine (City of God X.5)
Worship is a gift. God certainly does not need it. Worshiping the Creator is the creature's destiny – the only source of her happiness. God does not need worship; we do! But there is a trap in this truth – an ironic temptation to which so many "contemporary" or "seeker sensitive" folks succumb. We need worship, but worship is not for us.
Thus we must worship God to be happy, but we must not worship God to make ourselves happy. For then we are not worshiping God but ourselves.
This morning, as a visiting friend attempted to keep up with the liturgy, I was reminded of how long and complicated our services are, especially during Lent. Orthodoxy is overwhelming. We are the ecclesial equivalent of the dad who teaches his son to swim by tossing him in the lake. So no wonder advocates of seeker-sensitive services complain about our worship being long and difficult to understand.
This criticism comes from a good place, but it wrongly presumes that more than being for us, worship is about us. The truth is that worship is supposed to be demanding, because it is about God. In the end this may be what the "enquirer" finds appealing about ancient worship. In the demand they detect authenticity. It's sink or swim.
Worship is a gift. God certainly does not need it. Worshiping the Creator is the creature's destiny – the only source of her happiness. God does not need worship; we do! But there is a trap in this truth – an ironic temptation to which so many "contemporary" or "seeker sensitive" folks succumb. We need worship, but worship is not for us.
Thus we must worship God to be happy, but we must not worship God to make ourselves happy. For then we are not worshiping God but ourselves.
This morning, as a visiting friend attempted to keep up with the liturgy, I was reminded of how long and complicated our services are, especially during Lent. Orthodoxy is overwhelming. We are the ecclesial equivalent of the dad who teaches his son to swim by tossing him in the lake. So no wonder advocates of seeker-sensitive services complain about our worship being long and difficult to understand.
This criticism comes from a good place, but it wrongly presumes that more than being for us, worship is about us. The truth is that worship is supposed to be demanding, because it is about God. In the end this may be what the "enquirer" finds appealing about ancient worship. In the demand they detect authenticity. It's sink or swim.
Monday, February 22, 2010
What I Like about Icons
This past Sunday was the Sunday of Orthodoxy, a day to celebrate the restoration of icons to the church after centuries of the state trying to stamp out the practice.
I've found that icons tend to be the last hangup of would-be converts to Orthodoxy. As a Protestant, I was taught to view such things as idols, and to pride myself on the fact that my kind of worship was more "spiritual."
But there's a funny thing about spirits. A professor of mine likes to point out that spirits are always looking for bodies. The truth is that none of us ever encounters something purely "spiritual." Spiritual truths are always communicated by material means. We are material beings, and we use that which is near us to connect with what is beyond us, because that which is beyond us became us.
This is the truth of orthodoxy (and not just "Orthodoxy") that the Triumph of Orthodoxy Affirms. When Emperor Leo III (and most of his successors) attempted to stamp out the practice of bowing before and kissing images, they were threatening the meaning of the Incarnation itself. Some who opposed icons claimed that the purest form of worship was "spiritual" contemplation of God. But Jesus Christ was a body. He got into the mud, where we are, not so that he might raise us out of it, but so that he might transform us in it.
Thus wood and paint can bear the divine, not because wood and paint are divine, but the one depicted by them is! In affirming that wood and paint are not an impediment to God, the Triumph of Orthodoxy ultimately affirms the truth of the Incarnation itself: the material world is not a problem God has to overcome. In Jesus Christ matter has been redeemed.
We believe the Incarnation is not over. Christ did not shed his skin when he ascended into heaven. Thus the Orthodox Church makes heavy use of matter – obviously Eucharist, but also relics and holy oil and water – as means of our salvation. (Protestants also have this sense when they treat their Bibles with reverence, or tell kids not to run in the sanctuary. The book or the room is no more inherently holy than the wood and paint of an icon. It is holy for what it communicates.) These material things are holy insofar as they bear the likeness of Christ. Thus we can say in a sense that matter itself is being saved. And because Christ became matter, he can save us material beings as well, insofar as we, by the grace of God, come to bear his likeness, too.
I've found that icons tend to be the last hangup of would-be converts to Orthodoxy. As a Protestant, I was taught to view such things as idols, and to pride myself on the fact that my kind of worship was more "spiritual."
But there's a funny thing about spirits. A professor of mine likes to point out that spirits are always looking for bodies. The truth is that none of us ever encounters something purely "spiritual." Spiritual truths are always communicated by material means. We are material beings, and we use that which is near us to connect with what is beyond us, because that which is beyond us became us.
This is the truth of orthodoxy (and not just "Orthodoxy") that the Triumph of Orthodoxy Affirms. When Emperor Leo III (and most of his successors) attempted to stamp out the practice of bowing before and kissing images, they were threatening the meaning of the Incarnation itself. Some who opposed icons claimed that the purest form of worship was "spiritual" contemplation of God. But Jesus Christ was a body. He got into the mud, where we are, not so that he might raise us out of it, but so that he might transform us in it.
Thus wood and paint can bear the divine, not because wood and paint are divine, but the one depicted by them is! In affirming that wood and paint are not an impediment to God, the Triumph of Orthodoxy ultimately affirms the truth of the Incarnation itself: the material world is not a problem God has to overcome. In Jesus Christ matter has been redeemed.
We believe the Incarnation is not over. Christ did not shed his skin when he ascended into heaven. Thus the Orthodox Church makes heavy use of matter – obviously Eucharist, but also relics and holy oil and water – as means of our salvation. (Protestants also have this sense when they treat their Bibles with reverence, or tell kids not to run in the sanctuary. The book or the room is no more inherently holy than the wood and paint of an icon. It is holy for what it communicates.) These material things are holy insofar as they bear the likeness of Christ. Thus we can say in a sense that matter itself is being saved. And because Christ became matter, he can save us material beings as well, insofar as we, by the grace of God, come to bear his likeness, too.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Take a Bow
A few years ago, while my wife's cousin, and his wife, were visiting, they decided to come to church with us for a Liturgy of the Presanctified Gifts. For those who don't know, this is a service in the middle of the week, during Lent, when remaining Eucharist from the previous Sunday is offered again to the faithful. Hence: Pre-Sanctified. My Godfather's advice on Presanctified liturgy for visitors is simple. "Get ready to hit the deck," he says. We Orthodox bow a lot already, but during Lent we take it up a notch to several full prostrations.
That is one of the things I like most about Orthodoxy – bowing. It reminds me that even when my heart may not be in "the right place, even when I may be distracted by my kids or thoughts of the coming day, my body can still worship. And usually, where my body goes, the spirit follows.
That's not the way things are supposed to work, I know. Pick up any pop-culture book on spirituality and it will talk about the importance of nurturing the spirit. Spirit first! Then body! I hear that. I think there may be some truth to that. But that's not been my experience. More often than not, I find that bodily disciplines are what nurture the spirit.
I'm actually a little embarrassed by this picture. My "private" spiritual moment was captured and posted on the website of the Russian Orthodox Church Abroad (during the Akathist to the Mother of God when the wonder-working Kursk Root icon passed through town). But it's already out there, so I decided to post it, too. Because it snowed several inches the day before the icon arrived, and the roads to our church can be precarious when that happens, we held this service in a conference room at the Embassy Suites. It was the first time my wife and I were in church with all three kids (because of sickness and weather, Connor had not even been churched yet). At the end of what felt like a very long time standing in a very hot, small, and smelly room, the last thing I was thinking about was what I should have been thinking about: the Mother of God. I was thinking about my kids, about getting my jacket off, and about the drive home. But when my turn to venerate came, I bowed, and the service changed for me. It was one of the most meaningful spiritual experiences I had to date. The songs and prayers and tears of the faithful that morning gathered together and pressed me to the floor. When I bowed, the service became about the Mother of God – what it was supposed to be about all along.
(By the way, in case you are wondering, most of the women in my church don't normally wear headscarves, but they were asked to do so on this occasion. I think it's more of a ROCA thing.)
To bend the body is to bend the spirit. That is what I like about it. In the midst of all that distracts us, this little gesture says to me, at least, "Quit your belly-aching, drop to your knees, and look at the floor! Something important is happening here!"
Last night I attended the Canon of St Andrew of Crete. It is a service during "Clean Week" (the first week of Lent) that reminds us of the need to repent and to take what we are doing seriously. The constant refrain is, "Have mercy upon me, O God! Have mercy upon me!" And when we say it, we cross ourselves and bow. It's a very physical way of worshiping.
I think that is what I liked about being Nazarene. I remember my very first service, I witnessed a little old lady "running the aisles." Of course, she was quite old. So it was more like shuffling the aisles, but there was something about the simplicity of that gesture that appealed to me.
I look back on that memory with fondness because it reminds me that we are bodies. Worship is not simply a "spiritual" thing. When it comes right down to it, I don't actually think I "have" a spirit inside of me the way a child captures a firefly in a jar. I think (to paraphrase an old teacher) that I, as body, am spirit. This is why we Orthodox "naively" think we can commune with saints by kissing their icons. This is why we think God heals through a relic. And it is why when draw close to the sacred, our first instinct is to hit the deck.
That is one of the things I like most about Orthodoxy – bowing. It reminds me that even when my heart may not be in "the right place, even when I may be distracted by my kids or thoughts of the coming day, my body can still worship. And usually, where my body goes, the spirit follows.
That's not the way things are supposed to work, I know. Pick up any pop-culture book on spirituality and it will talk about the importance of nurturing the spirit. Spirit first! Then body! I hear that. I think there may be some truth to that. But that's not been my experience. More often than not, I find that bodily disciplines are what nurture the spirit.
I'm actually a little embarrassed by this picture. My "private" spiritual moment was captured and posted on the website of the Russian Orthodox Church Abroad (during the Akathist to the Mother of God when the wonder-working Kursk Root icon passed through town). But it's already out there, so I decided to post it, too. Because it snowed several inches the day before the icon arrived, and the roads to our church can be precarious when that happens, we held this service in a conference room at the Embassy Suites. It was the first time my wife and I were in church with all three kids (because of sickness and weather, Connor had not even been churched yet). At the end of what felt like a very long time standing in a very hot, small, and smelly room, the last thing I was thinking about was what I should have been thinking about: the Mother of God. I was thinking about my kids, about getting my jacket off, and about the drive home. But when my turn to venerate came, I bowed, and the service changed for me. It was one of the most meaningful spiritual experiences I had to date. The songs and prayers and tears of the faithful that morning gathered together and pressed me to the floor. When I bowed, the service became about the Mother of God – what it was supposed to be about all along. (By the way, in case you are wondering, most of the women in my church don't normally wear headscarves, but they were asked to do so on this occasion. I think it's more of a ROCA thing.)
To bend the body is to bend the spirit. That is what I like about it. In the midst of all that distracts us, this little gesture says to me, at least, "Quit your belly-aching, drop to your knees, and look at the floor! Something important is happening here!"
Last night I attended the Canon of St Andrew of Crete. It is a service during "Clean Week" (the first week of Lent) that reminds us of the need to repent and to take what we are doing seriously. The constant refrain is, "Have mercy upon me, O God! Have mercy upon me!" And when we say it, we cross ourselves and bow. It's a very physical way of worshiping.
I think that is what I liked about being Nazarene. I remember my very first service, I witnessed a little old lady "running the aisles." Of course, she was quite old. So it was more like shuffling the aisles, but there was something about the simplicity of that gesture that appealed to me.
I look back on that memory with fondness because it reminds me that we are bodies. Worship is not simply a "spiritual" thing. When it comes right down to it, I don't actually think I "have" a spirit inside of me the way a child captures a firefly in a jar. I think (to paraphrase an old teacher) that I, as body, am spirit. This is why we Orthodox "naively" think we can commune with saints by kissing their icons. This is why we think God heals through a relic. And it is why when draw close to the sacred, our first instinct is to hit the deck.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Forgiveness Vespers
Stephanie has taken the kids out of town so that I can work on my dissertation over the long weekend. Being alone in the house with nothing but my thoughts and an incomplete chapter is disorienting. My "writer's haze" was on full display tonight. I actually wandered into Forgiveness Vespers rather late. I thought it started an hour after it actually did, and I've been so distracted that it never occurred to me to call someone and check.
Nevertheless, I made it. I was the second-to-last person in line, but I was able to ask forgiveness from those present, thank God.
I hope all Lent won't be like this. I don't remember the last time my life was this nuts. My surprise son, Connor, surprised us further by coming into the world two weeks prior to the date Stephanie was to be induced. I was grading papers while Stephanie was in labor, if that gives you any idea of how the past few months have been. Plus I have this looming dissertation I am trying to finish, curriculum I have to write, and poor job prospects after I defend (welcome to academe).
Lent is supposed to be a time to slow down, to hedge back the world and reflect on the journey to Golgotha and the Resurrection, but to be honest all I can really think about at the moment is what is on my plate.
The only thing in my favor is the way Lent works on a person, often in spite of herself. Back in my protestant days (I'm a Nazbeen, for those who don't know), I was taught that "just going through the motions" was a sign of spiritual weakness. But sometimes life sucks all the strength out of us, and the motions are the best we can muster. And that's not a bad thing. Feelings don't always come first.
Any married person knows this. I don't always "feel" love for me wife. We're too busy to be feeling that all the time (I apologize to tween fans of Twighlight for bursting your bubbles). Like most things, love is a deed. It's a motion.
Parents know this too. I don't always "feel" like playing with my son. Sometimes I'm too busy. But when I stop and take just a few minutes to crash a few trucks into some blocks, I am reminded of how much I love the way George gives me an excuse to act like a kid again.
Lent can be like that too. It can be a motion that leads to a feeling. At least, that's my hope. So this Lent I have one goal. Just one! I am going to try to go through as many motions as I can. I am going to trust that, like parenting and marriage and most other things we grownups have to deal with, what I do on the outside will work on my insides. I am going to hope and pray that as I stumble through this journey, Lent will work on me in spite of myself.
Nevertheless, I made it. I was the second-to-last person in line, but I was able to ask forgiveness from those present, thank God.
I hope all Lent won't be like this. I don't remember the last time my life was this nuts. My surprise son, Connor, surprised us further by coming into the world two weeks prior to the date Stephanie was to be induced. I was grading papers while Stephanie was in labor, if that gives you any idea of how the past few months have been. Plus I have this looming dissertation I am trying to finish, curriculum I have to write, and poor job prospects after I defend (welcome to academe).
Lent is supposed to be a time to slow down, to hedge back the world and reflect on the journey to Golgotha and the Resurrection, but to be honest all I can really think about at the moment is what is on my plate.
The only thing in my favor is the way Lent works on a person, often in spite of herself. Back in my protestant days (I'm a Nazbeen, for those who don't know), I was taught that "just going through the motions" was a sign of spiritual weakness. But sometimes life sucks all the strength out of us, and the motions are the best we can muster. And that's not a bad thing. Feelings don't always come first.
Any married person knows this. I don't always "feel" love for me wife. We're too busy to be feeling that all the time (I apologize to tween fans of Twighlight for bursting your bubbles). Like most things, love is a deed. It's a motion.
Parents know this too. I don't always "feel" like playing with my son. Sometimes I'm too busy. But when I stop and take just a few minutes to crash a few trucks into some blocks, I am reminded of how much I love the way George gives me an excuse to act like a kid again.
Lent can be like that too. It can be a motion that leads to a feeling. At least, that's my hope. So this Lent I have one goal. Just one! I am going to try to go through as many motions as I can. I am going to trust that, like parenting and marriage and most other things we grownups have to deal with, what I do on the outside will work on my insides. I am going to hope and pray that as I stumble through this journey, Lent will work on me in spite of myself.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Great Lent 2010
Yesterday was the Sunday of the Last Judgment (Judgment Sunday for short), also called "Meatfare Sunday," because we say "farewell Meat!" Great Lent is about to begin.
To be frank, I am not ready. I don't want to do this.
Which means that I should do it all the more! Like a workout we are tempted to skip or a project we are dreading to complete, sometimes the best thing to do – the only thing to do – is put your head down and barrel through all the hesitation, frustration, doubt, and temptation to procrastinate.
That's the way the liturgy works sometimes, I think. We don't understand the richness of what the church offers us, but we do it anyways in the hope that understanding, and often even the desire, will come later.
To be frank, I am not ready. I don't want to do this.
Which means that I should do it all the more! Like a workout we are tempted to skip or a project we are dreading to complete, sometimes the best thing to do – the only thing to do – is put your head down and barrel through all the hesitation, frustration, doubt, and temptation to procrastinate.
That's the way the liturgy works sometimes, I think. We don't understand the richness of what the church offers us, but we do it anyways in the hope that understanding, and often even the desire, will come later.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Christ is Risen!
Last night was Pascha. I'm going to make this note quick because frankly I'm enjoying the day too much to blog. I'll do that later.
For those of you who don't know (first timers to this site), last night was Orthodox Easter. I say last night. It was really today (we Orthodox calculate liturgical time like the Jews, from Sundown to Sunup). So we gathered at church at 11:00 at night, 10:00 if we wanted to get a seat, and even then I stood the whole time. The place was packed.
The service starts in relative silence, in a darkened nave with the chanter reciting the Psalms. Then all the lights go out, even the vigil lamps. The priest, with a lone candle, sings "Come take ye light from the Light that is never overtaken by night. Come glorify Christ, risen from the dead!" It is hauntingly beautiful. Then we sing as we light each others candles from that one flame. After that we process around the church. It had been raining, but it stopped long enough for us to march around the church.
After a reading from the shorter ending of Mark we re-entered the church singing, "Christ is risen from the dead, trampling down death by death! And upon those in the tombs bestowing life!" When the entire church is lit and the priests are in their white vestments and everyone is raising their candles together, it looks like the church is sparkling, radiating a heavenly light.
Pascha is the only time we Orthodox get a little Pentecostal. The priests march up and down the church censing and shouting, "Christ is risen!" We respond "He is risen indeed!" Some churches say, "Truly he is risen!" which I have to confess I like better, but no matter. It means the same thing. The priests also "speak in tongues," shouting Christ is risen in as many languages as possible, mostly English, Greek, Arabic, and Russian. But I also heard German – Er ist wahrhaftig aufterstanden! – and what I think was maybe Hawaiian or maybe Aleut. I'll have to ask Fr. Bob when I see him tonight.
After that it is mostly liturgy as usual. The whole thing wrapped up somewhere around 1:30. Then we headed over to the parish hall to have our Pascha Baskets and the food in them blessed. Can you say, "Flesh-meat?" I like to think of the Paschal Feast as an extension of the Eucharist, knitting the Body of Christ together in the fellowship and levity that only forty days of Great Lent, six days of holy week, and about four hours of standing and singing and shouting can bring. Christ is risen! He is risen indeed!
For those of you who don't know (first timers to this site), last night was Orthodox Easter. I say last night. It was really today (we Orthodox calculate liturgical time like the Jews, from Sundown to Sunup). So we gathered at church at 11:00 at night, 10:00 if we wanted to get a seat, and even then I stood the whole time. The place was packed.
The service starts in relative silence, in a darkened nave with the chanter reciting the Psalms. Then all the lights go out, even the vigil lamps. The priest, with a lone candle, sings "Come take ye light from the Light that is never overtaken by night. Come glorify Christ, risen from the dead!" It is hauntingly beautiful. Then we sing as we light each others candles from that one flame. After that we process around the church. It had been raining, but it stopped long enough for us to march around the church.
After a reading from the shorter ending of Mark we re-entered the church singing, "Christ is risen from the dead, trampling down death by death! And upon those in the tombs bestowing life!" When the entire church is lit and the priests are in their white vestments and everyone is raising their candles together, it looks like the church is sparkling, radiating a heavenly light.
Pascha is the only time we Orthodox get a little Pentecostal. The priests march up and down the church censing and shouting, "Christ is risen!" We respond "He is risen indeed!" Some churches say, "Truly he is risen!" which I have to confess I like better, but no matter. It means the same thing. The priests also "speak in tongues," shouting Christ is risen in as many languages as possible, mostly English, Greek, Arabic, and Russian. But I also heard German – Er ist wahrhaftig aufterstanden! – and what I think was maybe Hawaiian or maybe Aleut. I'll have to ask Fr. Bob when I see him tonight.
After that it is mostly liturgy as usual. The whole thing wrapped up somewhere around 1:30. Then we headed over to the parish hall to have our Pascha Baskets and the food in them blessed. Can you say, "Flesh-meat?" I like to think of the Paschal Feast as an extension of the Eucharist, knitting the Body of Christ together in the fellowship and levity that only forty days of Great Lent, six days of holy week, and about four hours of standing and singing and shouting can bring. Christ is risen! He is risen indeed!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Holy Unction
I just got back from the service of Holy Unction, where the priest blesses oil, and anoints the faithful, making the sign of the cross on their palms and forehead. The Sacrament of Holy Unction is meant to heal and purify the soul and the body.
Stephanie has the next five days off, and because she is doing the jobs of two-and-a-half people right now (and trying to take care of things before leaving work), she has been working a lot, and I have spent a lot of time flying solo. She wasn't able to make it to the service tonight. Fortunately the kids were wonderful.
George was a little fussy at first, but then he fell asleep and I was able to put him down on my jacket. Kyla was also tired, but she was very "mature" during the service.
Naturally, I was preoccupied with the children, so I couldn't pay as much attention as I might have liked. The service is comprised mostly of a series of Epistle and Gospel readings. At the end, as we approached to receive the oil, the deacons placed the gospel upon our heads, as a sign of the hand of God upon us.
I like the thought of being "touched" by God. Back in my days as a Nazarene that had a very specific meaning. It referred to a kind of heart-warming, spine-tingling experience at the prayer bench. It was a spiritual touch. Spiritual touches are great, I'm sure. But I'm thankful that something getting plopped down upon my head is just as spiritual a touch as any heart-warming experience. It reminds me that, though God is Spirit, God is not opposed to the physical (unless we are Manichean). God touches us through holy things, like the Gospel, and seemingly mundane things made holy, like wine and oil.
Stephanie has the next five days off, and because she is doing the jobs of two-and-a-half people right now (and trying to take care of things before leaving work), she has been working a lot, and I have spent a lot of time flying solo. She wasn't able to make it to the service tonight. Fortunately the kids were wonderful.
George was a little fussy at first, but then he fell asleep and I was able to put him down on my jacket. Kyla was also tired, but she was very "mature" during the service.
Naturally, I was preoccupied with the children, so I couldn't pay as much attention as I might have liked. The service is comprised mostly of a series of Epistle and Gospel readings. At the end, as we approached to receive the oil, the deacons placed the gospel upon our heads, as a sign of the hand of God upon us.
I like the thought of being "touched" by God. Back in my days as a Nazarene that had a very specific meaning. It referred to a kind of heart-warming, spine-tingling experience at the prayer bench. It was a spiritual touch. Spiritual touches are great, I'm sure. But I'm thankful that something getting plopped down upon my head is just as spiritual a touch as any heart-warming experience. It reminds me that, though God is Spirit, God is not opposed to the physical (unless we are Manichean). God touches us through holy things, like the Gospel, and seemingly mundane things made holy, like wine and oil.
Palm Sunday
I know I'm a little behind here. Last Sunday was Palm Sunday. I will be brief, since I don't have a lot of time. At the end of the Divine Liturgy we all took palm fronds (which we had collected at Eucharist) and formed a line outside the church. Our children, carrying candles, processed through the line while we shouted, "Hosanna! Blessed is He that cometh in the name of the Lord!" Okay, most of us just shouted "Hosanna!"
Monday, April 13, 2009
Hectic Lives in Holy Week
I'm just taking a minute to jot out some quick thoughts. I've actually been working on another post for a couple of weeks, but it's been very piecemeal. Our lives have been especially hectic the past few weeks. Last week my son and I were sick. Today it's my daughter. My glasses also broke (so I have taped them, officially achieving uber-nerd status). The new frames came in early last week, but I just haven't been able to go in to get them fixed.
It would be easy for me to get frustrated about this. Actually, I have been frustrated about this. My wife is more 9-5. So when stuff like this happens it usually falls on me, the one with the more flexible schedule, to take care of things on the domestic end. My work tends to go to the back burner at times like these. I get frustrated, but not with my wife; she is putting food on the table, after all. I just get frustrated. Last week was my daughter's spring break, so I had about two hours of dissertation time. I had planned to squeeze in more, but, like I said, we were sick. That was frustrating, too. And last night, as I was looking forward to maybe finishing up a couple of things to get to my adviser this week, and my daughter came out of her room covered in vomit, I was frustrated then too.
To childless folks that my sound harsh. They might think I should look forward to spending quality time with my daughter on her Spring Break, or that I should be more sympathetic when my kids are sick. Actually, I did spend quality time with my Kyla (she went horseback riding for the first time), and I did feel very bad for my kids, and I pray that they get better. Last night I slept on the floor next to my daughter, who was on the couch, so that she wouldn't wake up in the night and get scared, and so I could be there if she got sick again. But I think, for most parents, our sense of love and compassion for our children doesn't take away our stress and anxiety about all the things on our "to do" list. Only crazy people lose their individuality when the doctor hands them their kids. They just take on another role, a dominant role, to be sure, but it doesn't negate the other parts one must play in life. So, we can feel two things at once.
I was frustrated this morning. My wife went to the Presanctified liturgy, while I tried to keep my almost-two-year-old son from bothering my sick little girl. Now, while she is sleeping on the couch and I am taking a moment to type this, I am reminded of what Kathleen Norris said in the Quotidian Mysteries, that even something as seemingly "mundane" as folding laundry can be a spiritual act. I am trying to remember that as I fetch my daughter saltines and tackle the world's largest laundry pile. I'm Orthodox. I should know that a washcloth or a freshly washed pair of pants can become a holy thing when it provides an opportunity for quiet and an occasion for reflection and prayer.
It would be easy for me to get frustrated about this. Actually, I have been frustrated about this. My wife is more 9-5. So when stuff like this happens it usually falls on me, the one with the more flexible schedule, to take care of things on the domestic end. My work tends to go to the back burner at times like these. I get frustrated, but not with my wife; she is putting food on the table, after all. I just get frustrated. Last week was my daughter's spring break, so I had about two hours of dissertation time. I had planned to squeeze in more, but, like I said, we were sick. That was frustrating, too. And last night, as I was looking forward to maybe finishing up a couple of things to get to my adviser this week, and my daughter came out of her room covered in vomit, I was frustrated then too.
To childless folks that my sound harsh. They might think I should look forward to spending quality time with my daughter on her Spring Break, or that I should be more sympathetic when my kids are sick. Actually, I did spend quality time with my Kyla (she went horseback riding for the first time), and I did feel very bad for my kids, and I pray that they get better. Last night I slept on the floor next to my daughter, who was on the couch, so that she wouldn't wake up in the night and get scared, and so I could be there if she got sick again. But I think, for most parents, our sense of love and compassion for our children doesn't take away our stress and anxiety about all the things on our "to do" list. Only crazy people lose their individuality when the doctor hands them their kids. They just take on another role, a dominant role, to be sure, but it doesn't negate the other parts one must play in life. So, we can feel two things at once.
I was frustrated this morning. My wife went to the Presanctified liturgy, while I tried to keep my almost-two-year-old son from bothering my sick little girl. Now, while she is sleeping on the couch and I am taking a moment to type this, I am reminded of what Kathleen Norris said in the Quotidian Mysteries, that even something as seemingly "mundane" as folding laundry can be a spiritual act. I am trying to remember that as I fetch my daughter saltines and tackle the world's largest laundry pile. I'm Orthodox. I should know that a washcloth or a freshly washed pair of pants can become a holy thing when it provides an opportunity for quiet and an occasion for reflection and prayer.
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